TOOMUCHVODKA

I would say I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry

2012-02-04T00:13:00.000-08:00

I don't know where to begin with all this. Let me state the fact that I've dealt with many many times that you have flaked out or ditched me previously, but lately, i've been ticked off. I guess it's been over a week.
Let's start off the day we were suppose to go shopping and you never replied to me. I got over that, and the next day you said that we would hang out on a specific day that week. That day, you hung out with another friend and when I told you you were suppose to hang out with me you even said that you forgot. The following week after, you said we were hanging out Friday (Today). Well yesterday, apparently you made other plans. You've done this before, but why am I pissed off this time? OH, cause you were the one who suggested we hang out today due to the lack of hanging out, oh also, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY WEEKEND. Even though I wouldn't have been able to go out due to family things, it would've been nice if you kept your word and still kept me in mind, not just remember and put our plans as your second plan s,suddenly, when it was your first in the beginning.
It's also not about the lack of hanging out. Also, lack of communication (there was that time we didn't talk from a Thursday until a Monday)
Also, your attitude lately. You've been getting butt hurt easily.
For example, when we were talking about the best friends thing, how you're down to "bestie #3," and you were just like okay and shot down. I was obviously being sarcastic with you, but I ignored it all.
Then yesterday when I mentioned I was gonna bake cookies, and someone else asked, "homemade?" and you replied to her, trying to make her question seem stupid for asking it, and as we kept proving to you that her question was reasonable to ask, you started to get annoyed and completely shot down. You just get mad over the smallest things that aren't anyone's fault but you make it seem as if it is. I don't know if it's just me, or if it's just you, or why, but it isn't fair to feel like I did something wrong cause I never try doing you wrong--and I can't think of any time I've ever done something disappointing to you or, whatever. I always stick to my words, like I said I would. I'm always there to let you vent to me and come back with things I hope you understand and take, and I always stick to the days we're suppose to hang out. I put you forth a lot of times, and now I feel forgotten, ignored, lost. Idk. fuck this.
I refuse to confront you with any of this because that will be drama and I would rather you realize this all on your own. I'm sick of chasing my friends with realizations like these, feeling like i'm holding them back, and then end up losing them.

2012-01-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

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I want this shirt!

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2012-01-29T21:36:00.000-08:00

(TylerBrandt)

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I hardly see men wear stripes....hm...

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2012-01-22T19:08:00.001-08:00

so pathetic I actually made a physical reasons to live and die list and live had nothing under it.

die was getting too long so i stopped writing.

2012-01-19T16:23:00.001-08:00

2012-01-17T17:23:00.000-08:00

“Every single person I know means nothing to me. I hate every person on this earth. I wish they could all go away. You all make me sick. I wish I was dead.”

In 1999 15-year-old Kip Kinkel pled guilty and was sentenced to 111 years in prison for the shooting death of his parents and two students at Thurston High School in Springfield. He also injured 25 others in Oregon’s worst school shooting.

2012-01-12T19:43:00.000-08:00

<333

Loafers

2012-01-11T20:45:00.001-08:00

2011-12-31T02:40:00.001-08:00

made me el oh el.

Our new dog; Princess...

2011-12-20T23:12:00.001-08:00

Mike and I’s friendship described in one situation:

2011-12-20T00:10:00.000-08:00

I throw all of Mike’s lunch on the ground. He gets moody. I tell him, “moral of the story; take care of your food.” He remains quiet and replies in short answers for the rest of the time. Next time I see him, he says, “sorry I got mad earlier.” Don’t say sorry about the lesson. Laugh it off. And that is what our friendship is like :3

Annoying

2011-12-20T00:04:00.001-08:00

How people will dislike a person just because they like or dislike a certain thing. Examples:

We can’t be friends if you don’t listen to _____.
We can’t be friends if you listen to _____.
Delete/unfollow me if you like ____.
Delete/unfollow me if you don’t like ____.

Not everyone likes what you like, not everyone you like will like everything you’re “in love” with. Personalities vary. Oh and you know what else, WHATEVER THAT IS, ISN’T SUPERIOR TO ANYTHING. People need to quit limiting people or shutting them off just because they do or don’t like a certain band, show, movie(s), series, genre, food, or style.

There’s a difference with being reasonable at why you wouldn’t like a certain person for not liking or agreeing with something of yours, but when it’s not personal to dislike a person other than one measly little fact, then you’re just being ignorant and completely unaware of your stupidity for judging a group of people for no reason.

People don’t always get along because of the things they like, but because of the mentality. Respect earns respect, grow up, you and whatever you like is not superior nor are you, so you are nobody to judge. You are the definition of what being closed minded towards other people’s opinions is.

2011-12-13T20:09:00.001-08:00

Mike: Thanks for helping me cx
Me: Anytime :)
Mike: This is why you're my best friend :3
Me IRL: Aww *smiles*

2011-12-13T19:25:00.000-08:00

I can't delete this video off my computer until it's uploaded some where, I don't know why. I'm just being random :s

2011-12-03T21:12:00.001-08:00

"I want to know how many scars you have and memorize the shape of your tongue. I want to climb the curve of your lower back and count your vertebrae, your ribs, your fingers, your goose bumps. I want to chart the topography of your anatomy and be fluent in your body language. I want you, entire."

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(RASBERRYANDRED)

Click source for more shots of this lovely outfit (:

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Perfection.

The perfect stairs.

2011-11-13T20:55:00.000-08:00

(ShakaraSociety)

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By le_vide

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those shoes....<3

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Winter: scarves

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2011-11-12T00:32:00.001-08:00

My next boyfriend has to not look anything like my last.

That means;

no plugs
no (lip) piercings
no dermals
no tattoos (or at least minimum which means it’s possible to find minimum since he had lots n lots~)
clothing style—or at least not so typical
longer hair—or a unique/classy hair cut

yeah, i’m actually saying this.

2011-11-04T20:26:00.001-07:00

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2011-11-02T23:12:00.000-07:00

coats. coats. coats. I want a nice coat. That is all.

2011-11-02T23:06:00.000-07:00

I like things like these where they're creative but have a use as to why they're like that. I want them.

2011-11-02T22:54:00.000-07:00

I really want to go to the snow this year, which means I'm going to need to layer clothes. I really want a scarf too :o

2011-11-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

2011-10-25T02:08:00.000-07:00

I finally saw Bane tonight C8 boy am I happy! My life=made. I wish I could repeat this night over and over again.
A-m-a-z-i-n-g <3

2011-10-23T11:18:00.000-07:00

I should stop being a brat and buy some dark brown boots for this upcoming season.

broccoli and cheddar crepes

2011-10-23T02:23:00.000-07:00

Click for recipe.

2011-10-23T02:20:00.000-07:00

So diggin the tights/leggings, socks, and boots style lately. Really want some dark colored socks and new boots now. Ahh, winter weather is my favorite fashion season; so many options. Must be ready for the coats, and tights, and socks and, and, and.....black :)

2011-10-23T02:18:00.001-07:00

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So much black, so little white, definitely a winter outfit.

pasta & rice=fave foods

2011-10-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

pasta with spinach pesto.

mmm white rice

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hmm cozy x'3

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2011-10-22T23:59:00.001-07:00

This is the way I feel about my body....

2011-10-22T23:33:00.001-07:00

:D

2011-10-22T22:49:00.001-07:00

Bane on Monday! Monday is so close! Yay! I've been waiting for this show for months now! And Sami's going too so I won't be alone :)
Alone or not, still friggen stoked!

2011-10-22T22:47:00.000-07:00

With fall this season, leather jackets make every outfit look "in." Whether it's colorful floral print, to a dark designed top, a leather jacket will fit perfectly. Thank goodness I own a few of those, or else my outfits would be totally bummed out!

She's just beautiful, my goodness :o

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Beyond cute, diggin those stairs

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pureaffections.tumblr.com

Really looking for one of these!

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MISSI R.

http://lookbook.nu/dangerousfashion

MISSI’S STYLE: Rock N’ Roll! That’s all!

TIMELESS ITEM: A black leather jacket will always be in style.

ARE THERE ARE ANY RECOGNIZABLE TRADEMARKS IN YOUR STYLE? Red lips and a lot of studded accessories

FASHION THROUGH THE AGES: When I was a little girl I loved to wear my Mom’s heelS… Today I’m still a big fan of high heels!

INSPIRATION: My style is inspired by the rock music of the late 80s and early 90s. I love a lot of hard rock bands from those times like Skid Row, Guns N Roses, Cinderella, Def Leppard and more. But my style icon is definitely Michael Jackson. I absolutely love his clothes, especially his military jackets!

FALL~~ING~~ IN LOVE: During Fall, I love wearing all kinds of leather clothes: skirts, shorts, vests, pants and more!

-thestyleline

I want a red cardigan like this:

2011-10-10T13:36:00.000-07:00

A buttoned up cardi and other styling ideas from Young & Posh blogger Chic Muse, over on Slaves To Fashion. Photo: Tom Attard-Manche

2011-09-23T23:27:00.000-07:00

Really want this rack!

2011-09-23T14:43:00.003-07:00

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This interior is perfection!

2011-09-19T17:20:00.000-07:00

Here i'll explain why: I love the simplicity, yet, modern look in the kitchen. You can see the living room, which shows that it's not a very spacey home. Perhaps it's a condo due the fact you can see what's outside the window, which are a lot more buildings, maybe more condos(?) the twirly stairs, the huge windows, the furniture. the color scheme going on. <3333

nikkilipstick.tumblr.com ♥

2011-09-17T15:16:00.000-07:00

PANDA EARS <3

1) Part hair in half, put it into pig tails/pony tails with small tiny rubber bands

2) Tease hair as big as you can get it and hairspray ( a lot )

3) Smooth the hair back into round balls, and pin inward at the base making cute round ears <3

you can make them as big or as little as you would like depending on how much you tease !

much loves xo

model: airica michelle

2011-09-17T12:09:00.000-07:00

One year and you are such poop. You are someone who's been around and still tries. You disgust me overall, I can't believe I still wanted you not long ago. You are the epitome of everything I don't want in a guy. You helped me recognize what type of person I want and don't want, and what type of person I am, but most importantly, what type of person is truly a stranger. I'm finally realizing what we had wasn't love. At all. I don't consider you any type of love. Honestly, I don't even think I ever loved you. I questioned my love for you the entire time. You forced me into love. You forced everything into me. I never thought I would've ever been this girl who thought she loved someone when really she didn't and who was manipulated. Which is why you helped me recognize, you really weren't someone. This was nothing. I wanted friendship when you didn't, you wanted friendship when I didn't, we don't need each other and we'll never come across each other again. Every day I do still think about you. But every day I find more and more reasons to feel pathetic that I was really involved with you. I thought you were the epitome of what I wanted at first, but then I got to actually know you personality wise and your actions throughout our relationship, and wow, you fucking suck. You come off as a charmer to everyone, but I was "fortunate" enough to see what you CAN become. You can't blame it on me for bringing the worst out in you, you control your body, mind, and feelings, control yourself, you are the blame in everything you bring out. You disrespected me like no other. What kind of man disrespects someone he "loved" over the stupidest things? I do admit, I can put some blame on myself. I'm mature enough to step up and say i'm wrong and even write it out. I gave you a hard time at first. I built walls I wasn't going to tear down. I burned bridges instead of building them. You knew my situation at that time though and how awful I felt for not having my best friend/guy I fell so hard for around anymore. You knew I still had feelings for him. You knew he hurt me unintentionally. You knew he was so important to me. You knew it all. And for that, I didn't let you in much. I was scared cause I felt like you were too good. Throughout the relationship I was indecisive because I didn't know what I really wanted. You never gained my trust fully, not after what happened with the girl you were with before me. But everything I did to you could not compare even close to everything you did to me. You scared me, you threatened me just so you can get your way. You manipulated me. You got mad at me over the dumbest things and wouldn't leave me alone. You disrespected me. You blamed everything on me. You cheated on me.
The worst thing about all of this is that I don't hate you, or wish anything bad upon you. Do good, as i'm sure you will. You hurt me, but you didn't take anything worthy of my mind. You just helped me recognize the bad. Maybe next time you'll treat your next girly better. Maybe. Maybe next time you'll recognize what a good girl is. Maybe. ~~Maybe~~ next time i'll be treated better. I will. I guess the only thing I hate is that the entire time I believed you were a good guy and I deserved everything. I believed you were going to turn out better than my thoughts. I believed in hate for much too long.

Haven't been on here in exactly a month!

2011-09-12T20:08:00.002-07:00

I should post up some good things :)

Mon, Sep 12, 11

2011-09-12T20:08:00.000-07:00

I ran two miles today without stopping.

omg

2011-08-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

Finding out that you were cheated on is sooo gr8.
Finding out that person who cheated on you hooked up with a friend, is sooo gr8.
Thinking there's probably been more
priceless.
Too gr8.

2011-08-07T19:44:00.000-07:00

Cat Kitten Measuring Cups

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freshome.com/category/living-room

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This brown! :)

Wowza.

2011-07-11T21:48:00.001-07:00

Becoming civil with an "enemy" (that's all I could call it right meow) after two years. This is strange but okay I guess. As long as i'm not arguing. Cause i'm listening to some really down ass tunes right now, and I wouldn't want my mood getting blown over just cause of pointless pewp. Whateverwhateverwhatever.

Baked Curry Sweet Potato Fries

2011-07-11T16:46:00.001-07:00

Click for recipe and whatnot :)

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snacks

healthyalternative:

DAY 62 Brunch.
Poached eggs on spinach salad with cucumber, tomatoes, red wine vinegar and extra virgin olive oil.

Tzatziki - Greek Yogurt and Cucumber Dip

2011-07-11T13:13:00.000-07:00

Ingredients:

-1 1/2 - 2 cups plain Greek yogurt
-1 English Cucumber, peeled, seeded, and grated
-juice of half a lemon
-2 cloves garlic, finely minced
-1 tablespoon chopped fresh dill
-1/4 - 1/2 teaspoon salt, to taste
-1/8 teaspoon pepper, to taste

Directions:

If you don't have Greek yogurt, or if your Greek yogurt isn't very thick, Line a colander with a double layer of cheesecloth. Then place it over a bowl and strain the yogurt over night.

In a bowl, combine the yogurt, lemon, cucumber, garlic, dill, salt, and pepper. Stir until well combined. Refrigerate until serving.

Serve with toasted pita wedges and/or raw vegetables for dipping or anything else you'd like to dip or top with tzatziki.
-Good Life Eats

chocolate peanut butter pudding cups

2011-07-11T13:11:00.001-07:00

Recipe :)